So it feels like lately the craziness will never end but then i remember that is the way life is. So I have been waiting lately and praying about something but I finally got the word. See at the end of september a church called me from south dakota that liked my resume and they wanted me to apply for their children’s ministry position, so i took it as a sign that this could be a good thing. Well after weeks that really seemed like a month I got the word, no. The person who contacted me said she was sorry and wished that the committee could have talked to me instead of making a decision by my cover letter and resume. To be honest I’m not that upset about it but confused a little, but I know that it will all work out. Well in the meantime while waiting to hear about that I started working at Gibault, this is a place for troubled youth. This job has been great, I love the kids I work with. The kids I work with have autism and they are great. My schedule is all over the place on working becuase they only have part-time positions but still it seems it takes my whole day. On the days I don’t work at Gibault I’m still subbing as a teacher. The craziness of the schools is my favorite. Like the last time I subbed for an elementary I ended up in fire fighter gear and crawling on my hands and knees in the outfit….then I climbed the water ladder which goes 85ft up. Even though I have two jobs that I’m working full time it still seems like there is no money for extra things. I’m not complaining though becuase we do have the money to pay all our bills on time and we have a place to live and we can eat even though it is mostly peanut butter and jelly sandwichs. I do wish I could look to the future and find out what big job is in store for me, see becuase honestly I really miss working in the ministry with those children every sunday. But I know God know’s the desires of my heart and he will fulfill them. The hardest thing is some news that my husband got today but it seems we will be back to sqaure one before we know it….(where i lost my job and couldn’t find one for four months)…See Circuit City annouced today that they are closing 150 stores but they haven’t said which ones yet….this makes me really scared….God will provided not the people of this world….I keep saying we gotta to pray and know that He will provide….but it is so hard becuase of how hard things have beensince May. Everytime we start to get on our feet something else hits us down….I know this is a complaint , but on the brighter side I also know this… I got married to the most wonderful man that God could send me, I’m not as stressed in my job as I used to be, I got a job, I can pay the bills, and everyday I’m living. Well I guess this is enough for today. See ya.
Books October 5, 2008
I have a little bit of a confusion. I love to read. But I bet you wouldn’t be able to guess what type of books I like. Well I won’t make you guess to long. I love children’s books. I have found myself reading Goosebumps again. I also have been reading Nancy Drew. I forgot how much I loved those mystery books until I started reading them again…it’s like a flood of good memories while reading the old classics. So i guess what this post is all about is what type of books do you like to read and what type of memories come to you while you read???
(insert your own title) October 4, 2008
I don’t even know how to start this blog out. Well I guess I could start with some good news….My dad finally got a job….I’m very excited for him, it has been way too long for him to be without a job. Second, I’m blessed to have a steady job myself but yet I’m not sure about it. See I keep feeling like I should go back to school. I feel that I have something I’m suppose to be doing that I know will be steady the rest of my life. I’m going to flat out say it…..job hunting and being in the real world sucks when you don’t know what is next. It’s all good for you when you know that you have a salary and know that you will be set in a job for awhile until you decided to move forward but most people don’t. I have spent the last week in training with some interesting people. And a lot of them shared the same opinion about terre haute as me….and I didn’t even tell them my opinion but it was kinda cool to hear others saying things that I have thought. I know that my husband has told me that i freak out way to much and i shouldn’t think of the future…..i should only think about today….one day at a time….that is a hit in the face he basically told me my favorite verse in the bible. He is right though….i have been freaking out and trying to make the next decision for the future. I pray and talk to God a lot lately becuase I feel that there is something else that is suppose to happen. I feel like it is right in front of me in the mist but honestly I probably don’t deserve it……We all have dreams and thoughts but its all up to us to make them happen….well mine aren’t happening and that is alright….
I actually feel like i’m playing the same day over and over again like the movie groundhog day but little things change….I was talking to my Terre Haute dad today and told him what two careers I’m thinking about and getting and he said that one of them was all wrong for me….he basically said it wasn’t me…..See I know what is me just like many other people do but why aren’t things working with what is me. Why did I have a great dream job and now it’s out the window…..I know that for the longest time I wanted to be a saty at home mom and I still do but money doesn’t work that way.
This blog is sad or stupid….
I have some things to admit….I’m a complainer, I’m confused, I’m hurt/scarred, I’m fallen, I’m scared, I’m pissed, I’m hopeful, I’m wishing very hard, I’m more simple then I used to, I’m more quiet, I’m patient but doubtful, I’m young, I’m happy, I’m excited, I’m silly, I’m……searching and seeking
