Due Date June 2, 2009

So it is almost 8pm on June 2,2009….today was my due date.  I know that first women don’t have there baby on their due date but i was really hoping.  I also know the day isn’t over but I have this feeling it’s not going to happen like I want.  One thing is that I feel more ready this week than I have the whole 9 months.  I feel that I really don’t know what is coming next but I know that God is in control since he is the one who gave us this child.  These last two weeks have been interesting.  I have cried some days of fear of not knowing and also just thinking about stuff….never good to think about things/assume.  I do know that Ihave dilated already some but many women can dilate and walk around many weeks and not have the baby.  These last two days I have felt soe much pressure in my pelvic area that it is hard to do anything…..i think it is almost time but I don’t know this is my first child.  I wa trying to describe the pain to my husband and all I can think about is when you ride a bike all day long on a really hard seat.  I did call the doctor and they said I’m just having labor pains and dilating more.  The thing is I had no idea you could dilate without contractions….who knew.  I really hope at my appointment tomorrow they end up keeping me at the hosiptal becuase I really don’t want to feel this pressure in my pelvic area until they induce me.   Well I guess maybe since everyone else is going to be guessing how big this baby is maybe I should take a shot at it.  I am guessing that my baby girl is going to be 8 lbs 3 oz and she will be 17 inches long. (I’m probably way off but at least I guessed.) So since she will be coming very soon and I don’t know what things I have ahead of me….I will try to update on here when I can.  Love you all and thanks for prayers now, then, and future….